First of all, thanks so much to all my bloggy friends who have found me here. FTN, great to hear from you. Aphron, glad you came by. Thanks, everyone, for all your support. Even that one girl named "Val" that left a comment that I was kind of half thinking was actually making fun of me. But even if it was, welcome.
So, today. Today sucked.
Not most of it. Most of it was awesome. I went in to see my therapist at 5:00 and I when he asked how I was I said, "I'm good. I'm actually good. I think I'm getting a handle on this stuff."
Boy, teach me to jinx it. I wasn't even out the door with my therapist when one of my friends called me. So, apparently my ex's boyfriend thought it was appropriate to post something criticizing me on facebook - over an incident he knew next to nothing about. And he did it in the most insulting terms possible.
OK. What do I do? I tried being mad, but it all just came out tired. But, seriously, what could I possibly do? Call him out on it? How would that do anything other than make it worse? He (and I'm seriously not making this up) thinks he actually knows both sides of everything going on, despite not actually talking to me for six months. The friend that called me was talking to both me and Madam X up until about a month ago when the ex de-friended her (in facebook and in real life) for not taking her side on everything. But up until then, she was talking to us both. And X's boyfriend had the gall (and insanity) to tell this friend that she had taken her position because she didn't know both sides like he did.
So, seriously, would talking to someone that detached from reality do anything good? And would macho bluster over my reputation do anything but make me look even worse? It's a no-win scenario. Well, except for that whole "vengence is mine, says the Lord" thing.
Father at church recommended that I let God handle it. In his words, "the best way to defeat the assaults of the devil is to ignore them." And he's right. But I can't help feeling like a doormat.