So, there's a lot of adaptation I have to do in all this. A lot of stuff that has to change that I never even thought of. A lot of habits I have to break.
Like, for instance, I'm at some friends' house tonight, and I keep feeling like I have some place to be. When I leave I look at my watch and curse how late it is...before I realized there was no place I had to be, no one who would be mad I was out that late, and nobody who would have known if I'd stayed longer. Besides my friends, that is. I'm so used to being...well, on a leash is how I'd put it right now. I'm so used to being answerable to someone else who would be mad if I spent time with my friends.
Another one: I'm so used to someone else keeping my calender and telling me when I have to be places. I keep almost forgetting appointments and stuff because I'm used to that being someone else's job.
Another one: I'm used to consulting someone else's opinion before I make decisions, big or small, and so now I'm having to do them all by myself and it's hard.