OK, so I'm about to post a bunch of stuff I wrote today (while I was supposed to be paying attention to this big day-long meeting), and it is all extremely raw. If you are going to judge me, then don't bother reading. Not that I'm going to be revealing anything embarrassing I did or anything, but because I'm just going to be honest about how I'm feeling about all this and where I think it is all coming from. As honest as if I was sitting with my therapist. The kind of honesty you just don't do where other people can hear because, even if we all have these kinds of thoughts, you just don't say them out loud.
Just warning you.